I evolve in this life, jinking,
In spite of its roughness thinking.

I'm different: the others' reverse,
Feel unwell in this universe,

But feel better with relatives
That help me to bear what life gives.

(The best one died,
Ah! No! My guide!)…

I feel sad, lost, I'm despairing;
How to continue, all's breaking,
It hurts so deep, none repairing,
Have no more aim, I'm weakening…

I can't realize, he's missing,
Have to accept, now I'm facing!

I'll never be the same, I'm new;
All seems so useless, all goes fast,
But now, I have to continue,
Have to come to terms with my past!

Logical thoughts in abstraction
Brings the modelling's need (as station)
That is always a contraction
Of mental realization.

Fractal Vortex: mental vision!

Heir of Pisa, humanism
And golden number: scientists,
Like an anthropomorphism
They seem to be some fractalists.

As limited is conciousness,
Like planets are seen the neutrons,
Infinitely big in the likeness
Of infinitely small (like protons).

Spirals are seen everywhere,
Vortex as letter, word and verse
Of a fractal up to nowhere:
Universalist's universe.

But it's an approximation
As this is a simple model
Only a representation
A modal thought that's a doddle.

What (hu)man can't see, he can't reject
So he represents what he thinks
And the way that he does reflect
Fixes how he can see: like winks.

Frustrated I am in this environment:
Sale with sexy women, sex in ad's metaphors,
Violence underlies: kindness' a commandment,
So hypocrisy lies; to have much more offers…

I want to be free and without anxiety
That's caused by this dead-end that is restrained anger;
False needs are tiring in this society
Inside they are tearing until making eager.

Slowly freeing myself, standing back and waking,
As I'm left on the shelf, nothing now is lacking.

But still lacking freedom, I'm using catharsis:
Even if too random, I feast with known faces.

How to be really in the strongest freedom?
Even ideally, free enough we're seldom!

Let's think about war's origin,
Not knowing, we can imagine:
We can't know when it was engaged
'Cause of resources lack, it raged.

The cause of this situation
Is the overpopulation
That should be hindered in nature,
This behaviour changed with culture.

Thus war's a way to regulate
But most morals make it much late.
It's horrible to realize
Most of us profit when wars rise…